stuck in reverse

here’s what i don’t understand about how people use “YOLO”. it means you only live once. so why would you justify doing stupid things, like partying, drinking, vandalizing, etc. by saying “yolo”? i mean, personally, maybe if i had more than one life i would squander a couple of them by doing those things. but since i do only have one life, i would rather spend it working really hard, graduating top of my class, going to an excellent college, getting a good job in a field that interests me, and making something of my life. because YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE. and the beautiful moments along the way are what make it all worthwhile. patches of summer light on the sidewalk, exploring in a place that makes you happy, late night conversations with your best friend, buttered toast, wearing a dress that makes you feel pretty. those things make my life worth it, not partying drinking vandalizing or talking shit. but i mean i guess that’s just me.

sometimes i look at random people on the train or walking down the street and wonder about their day or what they had for breakfast or where they grew up and if they’re having a good or a bad day and i wonder if people do the same to me